Almost caught up now it’s men a little nuts juggling however my mind is strangely at peace through the chaos. There was a point last week that I let myself fall behind a bit because of the snow and the risk versus reward of me going out and driving in it. I needed something I need to remind myself of some good things and I remembered that beast that I was on the Spartan course and on those mountains. I needed to bring that guy out again. So even though I hadn’t run in a couple months and the snow is knee deep I went on a run for about 9 miles in boots that were tearing up my feet and tueni degrees outside. Got my goals written out for the week and knocking them out 1 by 1. Just because you get knocked down doesn’t make it the end of your story I take it as the start of my comeback story. Let’s get it!
Making some decent progress catching up but not as much as I would like this week has been a cluster fuck. I have so much to be grateful for I was access to the place that I had for building my business however I feel less worried than I would have been any other time. I’ve Ben meding some relationships and working hard to establish my leadership with the group and then doing my best to motivate people and also to make sacrifices so I can be there for them. I have had the old blue print fight me back hard like harder than ever I’m having more trouble now can I had over the off season while I was doing the stuff on my own. Flight I’m also just looking at when I’m at now looking at about how it said I had let back in through the week and I’m just feeling wake mark was talking about when we had to put our DM p’s in the trash. It’s just not satisfying. I need to put more focus on the good and put more joy into these habits and exercises. Right now the goal looks daunting and feels impossible but I know that’s only an illusion. I collected a decision today for my business got multiple invites out and did my part on that front I’ve been getting better with picking up the phone. I’ve seen so many people succeed at this network marketing thing and I’ve seen many of them do it within a month’s time to a few months time. So why not me? I guess it’s only talk to imagine it because I haven’t been there but I need to trust myself and I need a trust all of the experience I’ve gotten to this point I’ve worked sales and every job I’ve ever worked I need to take that same confidence into selling for my company. Still haven’t really gone through my go pro notes as much as I should have either. I definitely have plenty of Room to grow and plenty of Room to step up. I have materials that no one in my team has and I have resources that alot of people don’t have just stuff that I’ve collected over the years and this go pro notebook has a lot of golden ideas in it. It’s time to study and apply and as I start figuring out what works I will be more than happy to share it with the team and use it to help duplicate. The Rhomboid in my back has so much better after going and getting a massage the lady has been a massage therapist for 21 years and oh man she can talk lol. She said I was the 2nd tightest person in their back that she has had in her time. I worked my way up to doing a session of 50 Pullups and felt great. The next day that muscle was re aggravated and I couldn’t do any. Did some stretching and hit the roller today I knocked out about 12. My back was so messed up because I was doing 50 or more pull UPS A-day and not stretching enough. Strangely those are my favorite types of workouts strangely because most people hate them. I love pull UPS and burpees because you get a lot of results for not so many reps. If you do 50 pull UPS A-day your back will look like a superheroes back I’m not kidding. Definitely helps a lot with the pecs and shoulders as well as abs. I’m excited to be able to get back into a workout routine because that has helped so much in every other area when I can do that but when I can’t it kind of f**** me in every area and it sucks because I have missed on a big outlet also I’ve eaten like ship over this last month or so so these low handles are coming in hot. Thankfully ones I can fully work out and keep going hard they should leave faster than they came. Everyday and every way I’m always getting better and better. When people ask me how I’m doing if I can’t give a positive response I always respond with I’m always getting better.
This week brought a lot of change. I know I’m a little bit behind on posting However I am also trying to focus on what’s best for my health as i juggle my way through. Called 5-10 people a day this week. Keeping the team on the same page feels like a fulltime job though. I decided to miss goalsetting last night for my mental health sake. Prepared everything for the event and lots of no shows thats ok i can grow from it. This guy whos in my upline invited me along on a hike then when im almost all the way there uninvites me which i get to talk to him about now. Pretty fucking rude to do that if you ask me. I just want some people to work with that will respect the work im putting in. Ive been making lots of sacrifices for the team yo go unnoticed and im doing my best to keep leading with kindness but its been getting harder and harder. The dude who’s my upline has flaked on me for about 4 events in a row. I just dont fucking understand it. He literally helped me schedule the fucking things! I cant hold anyone else to my standard and thats ok but obviously i must be missing something. Idk how i dont get any damn respect after all the work im putting in for the team. Im doing my best to keep the mindset of “we” while everyone else has the mindset of “me.” How do you keep a positive attitude towards others who obviously dont show much respect back toward you. Its like that post mark j showed people just putting on these feel good goalsetting workshops but not seeming to care if you’re not on an autoship. Im grateful for it though becauae at least im seeing more of what not to do so i can lead a better example for the people that are willing to step up with me and get bloody and bruised in the trenches. I need some people that are willing to follow me into battle but i need to keep stepping up. I see netsork marketing as a viable vehicle to help lots of people. Ive just gotta trust the process. If i do the work then the results have to come, right? Im putting a lot on my plate but my body can adapt or die i dont mind dying on the battlefield at least if that happened id go out giving my all. Im going to start edifying different people and finding more people in my company to work with if this trend keeps up. Might have lost my spot downtown too for meetings. After i got the green light to invite the whole team out for a training that he wanted to gove mapping everyone to one star he invited everyone out to this retarded ass ecstatic dance thing after i sent all the invites. When he invited me i said no and stuck to the original plan to so i could train myself instead of getting trained. The code was changed and my friend who owned the building had sold it. Ive been making lots of calls and they are tunning it by their board before letting me know if i can keep using it.. ive always used it afterhours and always left it better than i found it. Told them i just wanted to call and give the courtesy if asking permission. They seemed to really respect how nicely i asked. If i dont get a call yoday then i get to be the squeaky wherl tomorrow. For now i have some webinars to catch up on
So as you guys can tell I was late on my blog post however I’m looking forward to getting this week’s in on time. Talk about something crazy I’ve had more universal signs pointing me towards MKE than ever! There’s is so many things that just keep popping up in different areas and right when I got started the other night finally on getting caught up I got to start learning about narc again! The guy that came on was powerful and I’m so glad that I was all ears because I need to treat this like it’s a spiritual mission. When I went to go pro in Vegas alot of the big speakers were talking about a lot of things that were rooted in master key. I definitely had a good wake up call as well as I in awesome feeling of accomplishment because I chose not to quit. That guy was right about having not habit of quitting because even though I wasn’t great on all of my exercises last year I kept up through the entire off. With my scrolls and with the DMP and the affirmations. I felt accomplished because I always have been a big believer of finishing what I start and it just felt so liberating to look back after finally getting my pif in and to onow i didnt quit. Going to get some more carchup done tonight. My fire inside has been lighting and im making followups and calls and planning events like never before as well! A few minutes spent each day is a small price to pay! Lets get it!
Man that was a bummer. So I had a last 2nd bell pull out automatically which kind of put me behind the ball even more. Really need to get my car payment this weekend so I don’t get that taken I was just about to pet and it was $10 higher than I remember. Literally have 84 to my name and I have to make another 570 by Monday not including the gas itll take to earn all of that plus what little ill spend on food, gotta go cheap food thatll fuel my body, probably just going to eat a lot of eggs. Thats shits cheap, fills you up, and gives you energy. I’m not going to sleep much and probably going to be killing my body this weekend. I spent the other day working out lots of payment arrangements with different bill collectors which will help got the insurance progress is push further along with the people that had backed into me. I don’t think the let me make up 3 weeks it might even being four by now. I’ve been doing my best to keep up with all the exercises but these finances are killing me. Everyone wants money at the same time lol. I just got a laugh and keep moving forward because even though the situation my look or feel kind of hopeless I know that the world within create so well without cell I’m getting my best on that regard to keeping my thoughts Positive. I’m still doing the exercises and doing my best on those. If it’s been too long i understand and ill be back next year if i am allowed to catch up i think tuesday would be a doable as time to get in the pif, that way i have less chance of working myself sick this weekend. Sundays are usually super slow too so im going to have to pray for a great Saturday. Even if I can’t continue on this year I’m going to make every day count and do my best to build on these habits so that next year I can try to go without missing any days or falling behind. I love you guys thank you for all of your patience with me on this front. I understand either way on how it plays out. Regardless of the turn out I’ve become very addicted to breaking off this cement and that has been going on since i was about 16 i started working on myself. At that point it took everything to just get out of bed, im 25 now so i guess its been about 9 years. The amount of personal development that I have put in has been insane and I definitely feel it. In that time I have overcome PTSD, severe depression, suicidal thoughts, learned how to better manage anxiety, (no prescription meds just good old brain power) where and how to ask for help, be vulnerable, listen, be patient, generate happiness within, always getting better at controlling my thoughts and building new habits, and always being a better observer, always getting better at asking better questions which has lead to better conversation skills, and the best thing is ive learned how to really lead with my heart without fear of judgement. Its given me so much more freedom to be who i am and find out more of who i am. The more honest with myself that i am the more i get to uncover, the better friends i can become with the guy in the glass the more my happiness has followed. Theres so much power with being able to say i love you to the guy in the glass and mean it. Sometimes if my negative thoughts come in and come in too strong I’ve been able to recognize it and I’ll just run up to a mirror and say “hey fucker! I love you and youre better than those negative thoughts and dont you fucking forget it” ill ask myself things like “what do you want?” When im not sure and when i catch myself holding onto the past too much something thats been helping is ill look myself in the eye and say “i love you so i give you permission to let go.” One of the biggest things off my first time around my guide jorge at the time told me something that hit so deep and so hard. I was beating myself up for fucking up on my new habits i have been working to create. He said the easiest way to replace an old habit is to simple focus all of your energy on the new habit and the old one will fade.” That one was powerful! Im grateful for everything love you guys, peace!
- I am excited I should finally finally have enough to night to where I can get my pif and get caught up. Scroll for is helping a time mentally I recently worked myself sick again which personally is like one of the most DE motivating things I know of. This week has taken so much out of me it’s crazy but I’m no quitter I Persist until I succeed and I know I’m loading my player so much but I also know that these sacrifices will pay off
Leading up to Christmas was a challenge. I was putting my body through a lot between trying to get some money and having every curveball thrown my way with all of my passengers, And not making nearly enough because I ended up getting sick as a dog. I slept a total of 9 hours in 3 days and that really put the nail in the coffin. My mom needed the house appraised so she could lower her payments I stayed up all night cleaning and helping even though I was on 4 hours of sleep and awake for over 20 hours. Since then I was so badd with my voice say I couldn’t hardly get a few words out without just being in excruciating pain I have then power sleeping and power resting to try to get this sickness out of the way as soon as possible as well as giving my body anything that I could think of to help. Also been really good about not smoking this whole scratch which has been pretty awesome! My 1st priority when I get back to work tomorrow is to get enough for my insurance so that way I still have insurance on the car then my next 80 bucks will go to my pif. I know I have to play a little bit of catch up but I’m glad that I got caught up before the pif! I’ve been giving everything I have to each week and it would suck missing out due to finances however if I get kicked for being a week late then I am prepared to just carry on anyway by myself because I’m no quitter. I’m confident that I can catch up as soon as I get this in. Today I felt better than any of the other days and actually had some energy to do a little bit of work around the house actually I did quite a bit around the house making it the place clean as fuck again. When I had my brief stint outside of my parents house up in Boulder it was really cool because I started to appreciate a clean space and how much it really did help my mind. My friends call it fung shway. I probably spelled that wrong my it’s a Chinese term and it’s comes from having cleanliness and it helps bring peace and mental clarity. My next few days I plan to be putting in quite a bit of work, the finances should continue to be getting on track. I’ve been working my ass off and I’m grateful that the money that I need is coming! I’m also grateful for the $12 that I do have to my name as well as the half a tank of gas that I have I have been in much worse spots and I’m grateful for what I have and am looking forward to when those numbers are much bigger. I know it starts with my thoughts but I also have to take action as well. I also know that my thoughts will lead to action so I’m doing my best even with bill collectors calling me left and right which has happened pretty much through this entire course as well as the entire last time I took this course and pretty much for quite some time. At least the last year or so On and off. The fact that I’ve been able to keep my mind positive and make this progress that of them making regardless has been outstanding and I am proud of myself. Even if no one else is proud of me I am proud of me. I’ve spent my time in the darkness and I’ve gone more than my fair share of suffering. Everyday I’m just seeing this life Spring forward as the Slingshot is released. It might be scary and I might not know anything for sure but one thing I do know is that over the last 8 years I have taken all the courage that I’ve had and all the faith I’ve had in believing that I can do anything I can set my mind to. And even now I’m chasing a dream that no 1 else can see I feel like I’m on the right path and I know the it’s not easy because it hasn’t been. Most people would probably think I’m fucken nuts with how I think and with how driven I am to make these dreams manifest. Not only the dreams but also to find my best self I’m continuing to talk to the guy in the glass. I apologized to him for stopping talking to him. I used to be friends with the guy in the glass a long time ago so it’s definitely nice to be able to get acquainted again. Maybe I couldn’t look at him because when I was saying all that negative stuff about myself and calling myself worthless and stuff back when I was depressed. Deep down I knew it was a lie. I knew that I brought more to this Earth. I’ve always been very talented at a lot of things and have always been able to learn really quickly and then be able to adapt really quickly. These things will only improve as I continue to be a better observer. Not just of my thoughts but also the things that I surround myself with, the things I choose to watch or listen to, the people that are around me. All of it makes an impact. What am I pretending not to know? What would the person I intend to become do next? One step at a time 1 day at a time I’m here I’m Marching to a new drum and I’m ready to take this life back! All of my shortcomings and all of my hard times were made as a result of my world within and personally I feel like they were given to me to teach me what I needed to do to get where I want to go. It’s like the “bargaining with life for a penny” Poem “for once you set the wages why you must bear the task.” From a young age I asked for big things maybe that’s why I’ve had so many challenges by every challenge I get to learn from. Every challenge has a lesson and every lesson brings me closer to success. Other people may not understand my struggle and especially may not understand my sacrifices. these I have been making daily for the past 8 plus years. How many weekends out with friends that I’ve sacrificed how many late nights and early mornings. How many times I’ve worked my body sick from overworking my body and just putting in too much. At the end of the day people can’t acknowledg what they haven’t experienced or felt. It’s not their fault. I have chosen a Path that is less followed. It may have More obstacles and challenges and it may have taken me through some crazy things. At the end of this path though I have a feeling that there’s going to be something special i just know it! I feel it in my bones! I’m a night and day better person than I was and every day is going to compound over time. Im not even recognizing myself on a weekly basis and i feel like im growing at a rate anyone outside of this course would only dream of. Im only 25 years old and life has given me lots of lessons that most people never learn in a lifetime. Things like vulnerability, asking for help, listening, being honest with myself to the best of my ability, the ability to change my thoughts and create new habits, and coming closer to mastering the art of generating happiness from within. I may be a yellow and its so hard for me to just focus on one thing, im a very deep and analytical thinker and its a blessing and a curse. Its saved my ass so many times and helped me be aware of opportunities, its a curse because overthinking can be paralyzing. None the less when a lot of people would rather run from their dark thoughts. I want to face mine head on because I’m not about bottling that shit up anymore. And I deserve a life that’s not filled with negativity I’ve simply put in too much to quit. I deserve more and i will be more. One day at a time one step at a time i persist and keep moving forward!